i dont want to miss you anymore.

i dont want to think about you anymore.

i dont want all this sadness anymore.

i want it to go away.

cus i know i cant have you.

and i know im no longer in your heart.

and im being a pathetic girl to adore you.

even though my heart shattered into millions.

i dont like it when i miss you.

im backk !

hahaha. okay im currently watching singapore idol ,
like who do you think is going to be the idol?
I want Sylvia Ratonel !
girl, you got my vote. ^^

ps; i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.
I miss you alot ! you read this? I MISS YOU.



hihihihi.

i will be away from internet for the next few days.
going back to parents' tonight. so basically
i dont think i would be updating on like
eve of new year. so i think i would like to
say something about the year today. in advance uh ;D

for me this year is such an meaningful year.
esp when i got to know better of my classmates.
seriously, 2e7 rocks the house this year.
its rather meaningful as i got to know more
people and love more people. its nice to
meet all this awesome human beings.
I laughed alot this year.
I shed tears at times this year.
for those who warmth up my heart,
im sincerely thankful for you.

i do hope 2010 will be a great year for all of us.

so updation:
today kak sue came over.
Happy fourth month to brother and kak sue !
and i had fun crapping w kak sue and bro.
reason to why brother rocks:
- he knows my fav drink and buy it for me.
-he knows how to make me laugh when im feeling like shit.
-he knows how to make a fool of himself.
-whenever he talks, it doesnt make sense.
-he is super irritating most of the time
-he is someone that you can crap with it.
- he's a freaking funny guy

ohh, thats so kind of me to write about brother.
HAHA. it only come in once awhile.
i hanged out with doreamon . this is so funny:

me: oi. how do you have your first kiss?
him: ohh, very easy.
me: woah, act lah !
him: first, you leans towards her. *leans towards me
me: * blank face
him: then you look into her eyes deeply *stare into my eyes
me: control-ing not to laugh*
him: you tilt her head up to face you * he did that
me: * still control-ing not to laugh
him: you leans to her and kiss
me: HAHAHAHAHA!
him: eh , not romantic uh?
me: HAHAHAH !
him: ignoring me*
me: okay. okay. very romantic.
him: yeahhhh~

then he continue by tickle-ing me and me running like mad. -.-"
i guess i got to go now. i may update later,
cus i wanna play guitar for awhile.
and yes, these fingers hurt. ):

ps; no one can replace you.

hihi .

gosh why dont you take a peek at the time.
its so freaking late and i havent shut my eyes yet.

i just changed my blogskin. but still its freaking simple.
but well, i do like simple stuff.

anw, i fell in love with that necklace.
its so prettaay ! * melts melts

im still like a zombie here, typing all this down.
but im also chatting w Hazrul & Nai.
And you know what, i cant believe the year
is gonna end so soon. like, thats so fast.
I gotta say that this year is so meaningful to me.
^^ and i make it through !

kay guys, i think i should give my eyes a break.
so goodnights people.

ps; i told myself today. that i shouldnt
even take a peek at history.
i told my eyes today, that i shouldnt
shed anymore tears.
i told my mind today, that i shouldnt
dream about you.
i prayed today, to get all this over with.
I prayed today, to be w/o this emptyness.

dear god,
i believe you, may everything be fine.
and help me keep my heart strong.
amin.

status: very blank

have you ever felt so deeply lost in words
that at times you just really wanna give it all up?
i feel so lost now. every inch of me feels so hopeless.
as if im left with nothing. people keep telling me
that i own a very strong heart, but i asked myself.
do i really on that strong heart? and if i do,
where did it when?

Dear God,
Heal my pain, hear my pray.
I trust you dear god. And i only
seek help from you. May everything
be fine. May everything be okay.
May this feeling be gone and help
me be strong. Forgive for all my sins.
Your the greatest.
Amin.





its like bloody so freaking toots late.
but still im awake. well, i got some clue
by bestf who doreamon likey. here's it baby!



Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
bestf ! that was so unfair.

Rq. says:
what?
why?

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
the conversation just now w doreamon lah deary.
so unfair that you know who is she.
like, BOO.

Rq. says:
hahah, too bad
if you get to know who is she, confirm you freak out onee
she's like.. suitable with doraemon yknow

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
i will freak out? i already freaked out when he like someone.
suitable? really?
why bestf?

Rq. says:
well, that girl is someone we know.
for me, she's a very sweet girl lohhh
+ doraemon also sweet and caring

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
she is very sweet girl?
hmm.
from what you are saying, i think she is really
special to doreamon.
and yeah, doreamon is caring person.
i like the way he said that his admirer is away
for vaction to find her heart.
so , like. err. touching?
XD

Rq. says:
eh yah seyy!
if only i can find another guy that is like that
*melts
but please, that guy must not like someone else
hahaha

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
huh, woah. so like, err.
hahhaa
i dont get it.

Rq. says:
-___-
like if there's another guy that is like doraemon, for sure i fall in love with him
^^
but then HE MUST NOT LIKE ANYONE ah.
if not my chance slip away
so sianzz

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
ohh ,kay understood.
hahahhahaa.
anw, i still wanna know who that girl is.
she sound kindda nice.
by the way he talks about her.
;D

Rq. says:
cannot lahhhhh
Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
alaahhhhhh.

Rq. says:
soon confirm you will get to know lah
no worries
just be patient

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
hopefully he would tell.

Rq. says:
he will
duhh
we're like close friends already

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
Hmm, he better will !

Rq. says:
kk i give you clues
hmmms

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
yeah !

Rq. says:
she rightt
she adore spongebob
KAY THAT'S IT
no more aite

Freaker. { I keep my deepest wish for you} says:
spongebob? HAHA. cute or whuat!
kay lah ! fine fine!
*insert whatever face

bestf is still mean, as she doesnt say who.
but i give her mercy since she gave me clue.
kay lah guys, go to bed now.
byebye children.

psst; i cant stop thinking about the past,
and i sang a song for you.
with a tear down my face without realising.

dear god, please may everything be fine.



hihihi.

woah, grandma just brought a new desktop.
acer ,windows 7 the lastest baby!
woooweee~

basically yes i havent sleep yet, currently
im chatting w dearest bestf. like, she keeps
me laughing like mad in the living room now.

just now i spent like two hours on the phone
with dearest bestf and someone.
okay suckers, i wont tell you who is this someone.
but let me just give you an info about him?
cus i call him Doreamon. Dont ask me why.
Cus im super random, i dont know why.

so, i remember this part :

me: eh , you like who ah?
him: a friend lah.
aqilah: friend? who lah?
me: must be girlfriend already right?
him: no. friend. she is away for vacation
aqilah: she go where?
me: why you nver go also? HAHAHA.
him: she go find her heart, err. she break up w her boyf.
me: woah, pain pain. dont be upset eh.
aqilah: sound familiar. whats her name?
him: Secret !

and then i was away for awhile. and when i came
back to the conversation,

me: eh, who is the girl name?
aqilah: dont want say.
him: *laughs laughs
me: eh, aqit, you know already?!!
him: yeah. but we both dont want tell you.
me: WHAT THE ! not fair !!

so basically, they are evil );
doreamon, who is she? PLEASE leh , i wanna know.

i dont know what to do now.
change my blogskin? hm.
listen to music? hmm.

psst: how to do overcome this?



something pissed me off !






first, merry christmas yo !